I have to do something about myself. I feel blah a lot of the time. I am a teacher. I teach fourth grade. When I am teaching I feel fantastic. I love teaching. I love my students. However, teaching is not my life, it’s my job. I don’t think it is good to make your job your life so I haven’t and I won’t.

So, what is my life? Nothing. Once I arrive home for the day I sit on the couch and watch T.V. for hours. This is what I do. I love doing nothing, but when I sit and think about it I start feeling depressed. I have no motivation to do anything. Because I have chosen T.V. watching as my boring lifestyle I have gotten fat. I haven’t just gained a little weight; I AM FAT. It is my own fault. I am not just fat from watching T.V., I am fat from eating crap. I eat too much crap and I don’t exercise. I am not motivated enough. I feel blah and depressed and I brought it all on myself. The worst part about all of this is that it’s not a new feeling. I have been feeling this way for months maybe a year even and I haven’t done a thing about it. That’s the worst part.

By writing this post and realizing that everyone will see my sad excuse for a life should be motivation enough. I am going to get myself out of my rut. In December I purchased a gym membership that includes five sessions with a personal trainer. Have I used it… no, will I…yes.